this may be the only comp I enter, so the next 12 weeks I'm going to continue giving it EVERYTHING!
I was extremely upset the last couple of days this week, have had some.. family drama that coincides with my dedication to competing. As anyone prepping knows, time is a limited commodity fitting all the food prep, eating, training, cardio, posing practice, appts etc in around a full time job. This may come across as being well, selfish to people who don't really understand the commitments prep demands.
Its been causing me a lot of stress. Family is really important to me and I'm worried that if I don't somehow fix this now, as prep gets more difficult (esp from 6 weeks out) I will be tempted at times to throw in the towel. I mean, when it gets tough, really tough and you're tired, drained and emotional- would it take much for you to say to yourself- why I am doing this? and question it all?
I have worked too hard for the last 12 months to let that happen so Im hoping that at some point I will get a little more support. I guess the first time is particularly difficult. I would really appreciate learning from the experiences of others on this one.